Ninja Parade

Ninja Parade, wow...the things that people come up with...LOL.

Maddox on fashion

This website is totally tactless and offensive...so I love it!

http://www.thebestpageintheuniverse.net/c.cgi?u=fashion

WARNING: This site may be blocked on company computers.

Brother's Mission Call

For those of you who are unfamiliar, a mission call is an important thing to young Mormon men. It's the time in their life when they find out where the Mormon church is going to send them to teach other people about the Mormon church.

My brother, Luke, sent in his information to Salt Lake City (Church Headquarters) a couple of weeks ago.

My personal guess was that he'd serve in Missouri, but turns out he'll be in the Florida Orlando Mission. Wow, crazy! Two years of your life in a place you've never been before. I can't believe it's been almost 9 years since I was going through the same thing. Gosh, I feel old.

Personal Training

Today's an exciting milestone for me. I'm hoping to make a big change in my appearance (unrealistic perhaps) and begin work with a personal trainer.

My goal is to gain 25 of muscle in 3 months. Too much? Not likely? Well if nothing else I'd like to become the beef cake version of ME. Ok, so maybe that's still skinny, but improvement is what I'm looking for. Most of all I'd like to learn how to use weights...all I've ever done is swim; I'm clueless when it comes to weight training. I'm hoping this program will help me with that deficiency.

Wish me luck, I start today at 7pm.

- Reality Check -

1. Most people don't know I exist

2. Most of my acquaintances don't care about me

3. Many of my acquaintances don't like me

4. Most of my friends don't care if I'm their friend at all

5. Many of my friends only pursue what they can get from me

6. Many of my friends often get annoyed with me

7. Some of my friends love me despite my flaws.

8. Some of my friends love me for my flaws

9. A few of my friends love and care about me.

...And all that doesn't matter if I care about myself as much as I want others to.

Making You Mine

When all the songs seem to be about you
When your voice sheds every shade of blue
And your presence draws light from above
I simply must ask, ‘could it be love?’

When all your wants become mine too
And your smile pearces my chest through
Could it be some silly infatuation,
Or could it be love?

My euphoria sores, my mind's grounded
I know my feelings are firmly founded
When your bliss means more than making you mine
I know it must be love.

Reflections

You go through life trying to please them all
A social construct that will always fall
Your happiness contingent on theirs
Disappointment is the best it fares

Forcing yourself into everyone's mold
Trying to do and look as you’re told
You’re pushed and pulled in all directions
Avoiding truths like deadly infections

You resist eye contact with the mirror
Unfamiliar with how you appear
The shell does not reveal
The person you’re still.